sooooooooooooooo tired

How long will these cycles go on? Each week, there are five school days, and two days of rest. I spend the school days at school, and often don't come home until late. I spend my weekend doing stupid little things that relieve my stress but waste my time. And every school day, I wake up, sleep in a few minutes, eventually get dressed, get my school stuff together, rarely eat breakfast, and leave for school, one way or another. At school, I go through various classes...band, PE, something fun, english, a lunch break, a couple of interesting but not my favorite classes, and a pretty good last class. Then I usually do something, like piano lessons or jazz band, and go home eventually. I go on the computer, eat while either reading or watching TV, and do homework. I watch TV or go on the computer some more, and then take a shower and go to bed.

This cycle is so pointless. I can't wait for summer. But even then, I will be stuck in a cycle. Perhaps I will never escape.

Attempting to Banish Anger

My mom is mad again. I'm trying not to let it get to me. I made a new year's resolution to be a better person. It may not be the new year yet, but I don't care. To me it is.

I already sort-of prayed and sort-of meditated. Basically, I lit a candle and set it in the window, and I set out eight objects: a white rose-shaped floating candle with a petal broken off, to represent truth, because I want to try to find truth; a blue container candle to represent purification, because I want to be a better person; a red candle I lit a lot during Advent that for me, represents giving and caring about others; a pink rose-shaped floating candle in a little red glass tealight candle holder, to represent that I wanted to find love this year, or at least get a boyfriend/girlfriend; a mirror with magnification to represent bringing things into clearer focus; a black-glazed ceramic cat I made in art, to represent that I want to help cats, since they are often forgotten; a nice pendant, because I want to see beauty in the world and create beautiful art and play beautiful music; and a rock with a kanji meaning "friend" that I found in Seattle. Basically, I'm not sure why, but I sort of prayed/meditated on the things I want to happen in the next year. Of course, there's teh classic goal of becoming more fit, but more than that, I want Sapphire to be at a healthy weight for a medium-sized female cat, and Sally to eat more normally.

Isn't it awesome that the last full moon of the year is the last day of the year?

Forums vs. Schedule

I'd like to return to some forums, Lumine Hall for one. But I'm too busy... That's almost at the end of the list of things I need to make room for in my day. First, I need to stop playing the Sims 2 so much and start finishing up some games I never finished, like Contact(and I was almost at the end, too) and I know I'm probably not that far, but I'd like to finish Chrono Trigger. And the fact that there's alternate endings is overwhelming, just scary.

I also need time to learn things. I was somewhat studying Japanese until I became too busy sometime near the beginning of the school year. I'd also like to learn Latin, and Javascript (not that those are related :P). I need time for art, and time for piano. Out of all of the things I've listed, piano is the most important, but it's the one I tend to neglect.

Oh, and I need to clean my room too.